These past few weeks have had me in a mental haze. My mind is going off in a hundred different directions. I lay awake going through numerous scenarios about “what if” and following each path through my mind.
It feels like I have been going to Blips & Chitz to play “Roy: A Life Well Lived” over and over again. Trying new paths but always reaching the same result. Born, grow up, date, get married, have kids, do job, receive “Greatest Dad Trophy”, retire, get cancer, die. Is that really my lot in life? How can I change it? What am I needing to do to keep my lifestyle fresh and exciting?
Perhaps more vacations?
Maybe a new car?
Exercise? (Hahaha sorry…)
What about a career change?
Or volunteer my time to some community cause?
Read more books?
The answer is: I don’t know. And I’m ok not knowing at this point. I’ve been trying new things this year to find my own inner peace:
Connecting with old friends.
Making new friends.
Writing this blog.
Trying new restaurants.
Cooking new foods.
Learning new arts.
Changing my hair colors.
Repairing family relationships.
My journey is still ongoing. I just need to let it take me where it needs to. There is no right path or wrong path for me at this moment. I need to stop worrying because everything will work out.