If you’ve been following my daily blogs, you’ll notice that I try my best to portray something positive about my life. A part of me feels that there is too much negativity in this world. If I can share just a small ray of sunshine or a glimmer of joy on any given day- then I feel I have accomplished my daily goal.Let me be honest with you for a moment.
Every day isn’t always sunshine and moonbeams. Sometimes there’s a darkness. A really crappy, pull you down from your happy place, bury you so deep that you have to dig out of the muck, darkness. Those days I just want to curl up in the fetal position and sleep until forever passes me by. Lucky for me, I sidestep the darkness and peer around the corner and try to tell a story or two of something uplifting.
I mention this because at one point in my life I was on antidepressants. Which is really better than the self medicating/ intoxication I was doing to myself. But I wasn’t thrilled to be taking a different set of drugs to alter my mental state. It changed me and I could sense the change. I became emotionless and I hated that more than being depressed. It made me realize that I didn’t need the pills- I just needed to be more positive.
That may sound like hooey, but it’s true. After six months of being on the drug and not drinking, I stopped taking it. Once I started making goals for myself by becoming more kind and supportive to those around me. Then my life got better. By sharing the good, I received the good back.
As well, not gossiping or falling prey to rumors: either told to me or about me, meant my life has less conflict. I was able to start a long and happy life. I want the same for my friends and the few followers I have.
If my writing brings a smile to your face, please share it. If it makes you think a bit differently about how you interact with others, please let me know.